--> Action for Lupin Residence

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[He comes in so quietly, if there's no one by the door, there's no way he'll be noticed]

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I'm sorry dad. I'm so sorry...

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

it's alright. it's fine. don't say that, we'll be fine.

[fallthru.livejournal.com]

It's not. It's selfish. I should've come to you, you would've helped - or dad - or Andy - or D - or - it's not like I lacked addresses I just...I was so ashamed.

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

Of what?

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Of myself. Of how much I've failed.

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

Who did you fail? why would you think you've failed?

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I made such a big deal...of going to college. Of being out on my own for once, after what happened at Hogwarts...and when it happened again I just couldn't face you, couldn't deal with telling you how pathetic your son really is.

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

so what? you do your videos, you're funny. so don't go to college. that doesn't make anyone a failure.

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I can handle the schoolwork. It's the people I'm terrible with. So what am I gonna do, hide at home for the rest of my life? Be that creepy loser who never moves out of his parents' basement?

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

No. you'll take it one step at a time. there are people you're comfortable with. moving to college is a bit thing. take it slow, kid.

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I think I may have ruined it for myself.

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

Nah. if there's anything this place taught me? nothing's ruined. give it time. we're here for you.

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Dad I...I had it really bad. I somehow always manage to make it really bad. I don't know how I'm doing it -- it's a talent, really. I go in just wanting to make some friends and have a good time and I end up with...

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

we'll work on it. You me, your father, Autumn, we'll work on it but you -- have to calm down, ok? calm down, we'll be fine. trust your old man.

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[He wipes at his eyes]

There's something I should tell you. Before...you'll find it in a nastier way.

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

Go on.

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There are pictures. Of me. On the internet.

[It's the thought of having this conversation that made him give up. God. He can't look anywhere near his eyes.]

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

--- That's something D can take care of.

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[Exactly what he's always wanted, his big sister seeing his forced porn shots. Or anyone seeing them. Or them existing. He just shrinks into himself]

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

Do you want to tell me how - ?

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[Not really, but he feels like he owes him an explanation. A why.]

There were some guys, in my dorms. We had...shared showers. They walked in on me there.

[He didn't have his wand, and look at him, he's thinner than some of your daughters.]

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

We'll get the pictures off.

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I'm really sorry, dad.

[charmseasily.livejournal.com]

You have nothing to be sorry about. no more apologies, we'll fix it.

By the way, before I forget, a girl called. Chloe.

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[But he feels like he does. Like he has everything to apologize for. Like it's all his fault.]

She's a friend. Did she leave a message?